Saturday, November 03, 2007
Sometimes i wonder what would my life be like if i'm still staying in kovan. I wouldn't be in twe anymore and I wouldn't have met so many wonderful people. Maybe if i didn't move, i wouldn't even know these people exist, and actually those people i will meet in my other secondary school would be those wonderful people. okay. this is difficult to explain.
Anyway, fate, is so amazing.
I've totally stopped contacting my primary school friends. There's seriously nothing much to talk about. Also, everyone have their own lives to lead.
I really really really want to know what it's like, to have a primary school friend in the same class with me.
It's nice to move. Start a whole new life. Meet new people. Make new friends.
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To my dear clarinettists:
Today's band prac was not good at all.
I tested my section omisoka bars 31,41,95, or is it, 32,42,95...
ONE BY ONE
By testing them, and knowing that zat already wanted these parts to be ready, i would know whether they have practised or not. Since, this whole week, the only people who came down to practise was zul and sherina.
Of cos, if my section members couldn't play well for those parts, i would have every rights to punish them. The sec 1s could play quite well, especially sherina. I could tell some really did practise, but not enough. But some.. yah.
I hope the punishment would work. I hope they will start practising more. Since its holidays, they have to come down. I want to go to the extremes, but i worry its too much for them. But i think i will still.
I hope no more of my section members will say 'i going out with friends', 'my parents dont allow', 'i going out with family', 'i'm busy', 'i can't', 'i got tuition' (most common), etc, when i'm going to ask for sectionals. Exams are OVER, god.
They can have as many outings, tuitions anytime after the concert and the competition. But now, time is running short, i really want them to realise how badly i want to have sectionals, with EVERYONE AROUND, even though zat says that individuals is more important for clarinets. But since they dont do individuals, I want to test them, i want to know how they've been practising, i want to scold those who don't. But i doubt scolding would work. I'll just have to think of more ways.
Zat is right, because our school is in the area where almost everyone is rich, everyone is just spoilt. What's so good about going out to shop, eat, play? Don't your have a goal in life? Don't your want to be a good player? Don't your wish your had a good tone? Don't your wish your could prove to Zat that your can actually be a good player? Why stop here. Why complain. Why don't your reflect? Your may feel sad that Zat says we're weak, but do i see your come down to self prac all these while? Maybe because school is over, and your are having a holiday, that's why your see no point travelling to school just to self prac. Ok, then bring home your clar to prac! the only person i know who brought home his clar this week is chengtat. If i'm not wrong, Chengtat is the only one i didn't punish today. Must your be forced, then your will come down? If that's the only way, by all means. Since i've never been strict on your, i shall. I really want your to be good players. I was a very weak player once too. I've also been picked on before. I wanted to cry, but since mr glosz insists that females are weaker, why should i let him be happy that he's 'theory' is 'right'. I also liked to hide behind my seniors. But after yixiong broke his leg and couldn't come for band, i couldn't hide anymore. I had to play first clar alone for a performance. I was soft and i didn't play well, but it did make me want to have a better tone badly. I hated yixiong for it, but it was only for that period. It did make me a better player compared to last time. Maybe I and Jane and Chengtat should go break our legs, then your will be embarrassed and learn to blow louder and be determined to have a better tone and skills so that your wouldn't be embarrassed anymore. I'm partly at fault so i dont think i want to continue making the same mistake. Please change for the better. I know your dont feel good when people are actually utterly disappointed in you.
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Tmr's the school's open house. I hope the ensemble will go well! It's nice to know that we managed to play the piece in just one week, even though its not perfect, it's still a sense of achievement.
always a twemasekian `12:21:00 am
